My Quantum Ascension...

 

  I thought I’d share a backstory about myself focusing on my spiritual experiences from the beginning for those interested. I will be most likely be referring to certain people and my past experiences in future posts, so I have done my best to summarise my spiritual voyage so far; my experiences, where I've come from, where I am now, who I am now - my ascension so far…

       I have been blessed to have an open minded family, their interests spanning far and wide such as astrology, paganism (white witch), the paranormal, chakras, crystals, tarot, healing, UFOs, etc. During my early years I had many experiences that would be seen as normal growing up to any outsider; however, it was more than just imaginary friends and a wild imagination.

I’d see orbs flash across the room, misty patches (what I considered to be ghost activity or fey), I had imaginary friends and I had ‘ghost friends’ and I was aware that there was a difference. Certain spirits would talk to me daily, I ended up telling one of them to bog off because he used to keep me awake by jabbering on (I guess that was my first experience of spirit clearing without knowing it!)

       Around the age of 5, like most kids, one night I was meant to be asleep; Mum caught me sitting up and talking to someone across the room. I explained that there was a short a blond lady of 3ft who glowed, she was wearing what looked like a red blazer or robe and was talking to me in another language. I could almost understand her; she was telling me something about them being family, explaining that “the energies were real” and what my purpose was here. We were chatting away for quite some time apparently. Later on that night, whilst attempting to get to sleep I was awoken by a tremendously bright light, I rushed over to the window and saw what looked like a bright pointed star (like the star of Bethlehem) floating across the roof tops - too bright, silent and close to be a helicopter, it shone a light beam into my eyes, shot off and disappeared. Thanks to Mum's recollection I have only just realised that these two events actually took place in the same night.

As I grew older my experiences slowly lessened as it would with any child, but it never died off. I continued to have the odd experience or visitation as well as sensing things clairvoyantly. I was drawn to learn more about all different religions and took an interest in taking part in pagan ceremonies (white witch/lightworker) that my family attended. I was introduced to playing with crystal energy, visiting mediums, spiritualist churches, and anything related.

       At the age of 13 (2003), for my birthday, I was gifted something rather different. I began feeling odd and started visibly shaking all over, my insides felt like they were moving at the speed of light, it felt like I was integrating higher frequencies and unlocking knowledge I once knew. I began seeing all sorts, automatic writing and hearing all kinds of voices. Anyone would have called the men in white coats with my schizophrenic symptoms. Luckily and ‘coincidentally’ at the time Mum was reading a book called Divine Intervention by Hazel Courteney (http://hazel-courteney.com). The author writes about going through what is known as a Spiritual Emergency. Mum and I accepted that what I was going through wasn't a physical problem that could be solved by seeing doctors, and so Mum ended up writing to Hazel seeking advice; Hazel then followed this up with a phone call and my journey really begun there.

    It was like the cork to my spiritual bottle of fizzy had been popped, this energy was flowing fast and strong, yet making me ill in the process. Hazel Courteney took an interest, she reached out by recommending and connecting us with her amazing personal healer, she helped me balance these new attunements and work with the Kundalini/quickening energies I was experiencing. Hazel briefly included some of my experiences in her book, Evidence for the 6th Sense, if it weren't for her writing, kindness, guidance and help, we wouldn't have had insight to what was going on with me, it all really was a divine intervention!

       As time passed I was able learn how to listen to these frequencies as well as switch them off (very important!) I could better manage, filter and work with these energies without feeling as ‘crazy’. Naturally, Mum and I ended up researching as much as we could on the messages that I was receiving, the more we researched, the more everything linked together and made sense. I was in contact with many beings/entities such the Elohim, light beings known as The Brotherhood, and a guide named ‘Sophia’ (which I now know to be the Christ consciousness). I received messages and channellings from Metatron and Melchizedek, I began speaking in light language* and traveling to other dimensions, timelines, densities and planets during meditation, I was informed that Mum and I were Pleiadian souls, here for an important reason. Oddly, I went from having the writing skills of an average 13 year old to that of a average adult, they showed me how to write (not that I'm the best even to this day), opening up this medium for me, with improved spelling, grammar & humor thrown in for free. I had been activated.

    Between Mum and I, we set up and ran an online groups with the 'soul' purpose of helping others who may have gone through experiences in similar ways, as well as sharing knowledge and information. We expanded from two small groups (called Spiritual Calling and Knowledge Sets You Free on MSN groups - those were the days) making friends with amazing souls over a period of 2 years.

Eventually, everything came to a close, life had become more intense than it'd ever been and things were about to completely change. I heard a voice say to me, “We have opened you up, given you a taster of your ability, life will become tougher and many trials lay ahead, this will all come into play when the time is right once again”. ‘They’ would be re-coding, healing and guiding me from the other side over the next few years, everything that was happening and going to happen would be taken care of. At that point, around the age of 15 (2005), life did indeed completely change, beyond the imaginable; instantly thrown out of all comfort zones and thrust into the next stages of my life. I had been stripped to the core, forcing me to jump into the pit of despair; only in the cold and dark did I truly learn about myself and others. However, I decorated my pit and made it home, sifting through the depths of my psyche; building myself back up from the inside. As I learnt about human psychology and ‘what makes us, us’ – what made me, me, I was able to slowly climb out my pit, brush myself off and began re-building.

Life was too ‘noisy’ and during this period of quiet spiritual time I still experienced many things on and off, it was just as if I was blocked or not meant to connect – not even to my inner and higher self, I had no drive to either…

       In 2009 I found myself back on a familiar path studying Carl Jung (I had been fascinated by his work since I was young thanks to my Mum). At that time I had unknowingly been working very deeply with my archetypes, shadow and making friends with my depression, anxiety and a bundle of other fun things. I became avidly interested in and studied sacred geometry, the building blocks of the universe, symbols and everything related; leading me deeper into maths, numerology, physics and the quantum (at least more of an understanding than I’d ever had before). I became obsessed with spirals and the Fibonacci so much so that I adopted the name of "Spiro". Everything began making sense on more levels now. I felt the urge to meditate as it had been a long time since I had done so for more than just a few minutes. I received my first message in a long time - a female would enter my life, she would help me through many challenges and teach me spiritually, I saw her in the brightest of lights and named her Shiny. Around the ages of 19-20 I finally met her, when I saw her for the first I noticed she had pagan and reiki themed tattoos, I just knew we had to talk, and it just so happened that our lives were already interconnected through others close to us... I am most grateful for Shiny as she has taught and helped me so much and will always be a true inspiration and friend in spirit and the physical realm. She came to adopt the name Shiny Brightmoon and I will most definitely be mentioning her in the future posts.

       Time sped rapidly towards 2012. Throughout 2011 I began to feel the connection seeping in again, the need to focus on it again. Stronger and stronger it grew, I found myself back in research mode, researching quantum physics; the micro and macrocosm, and working out my own theories once again. Everything metaphysical could be proven and understood through quantum physics and I wanted to find a way to eventually teach others how they linked together. I felt back on path again, at least partially.

    As 2011 turned into 2012, I was fully connected once again and ended up guided to re-open my closest friend’s wings (clearing and expanding the aura and chakras, reconnecting to source, cutting cords) my kundalini and source energy had been reactivated. ‘They’ told me that they had unlocked part of the seal they created around 2004/05, this was the beginning of the rebirth (as opposed to the beginning of the beginning in 2003). I began speaking and singing in light language more frequently. My dreams were increasingly more lucid, vivid, prophetic and apocalyptic. Reality began tearing more than it had ever before - dream life was merging to the point where my ex-partner and I were awoken one night by a UFO visitation in the field our flat backed onto; whoever visited me was both within my dream and in this physical reality, I caught them leaving my mind and heading back to the ship somewhere in between REM and awake state, I saw their ship burst into light, causing my ex and I to sit bolt upright awake…

Going back as early as I can remember, I've had lucid dreams, mostly of an apocalyptic nature: volcanoes, flooding, tsunamis, tornadoes, asteroids, nukes, aliens, robots, the government killing and brainwashing everyone... In almost every dream I've had, something catastrophic or profound has happened, I'm normally rounding up survivors, telling people what’s going on or guiding others to safety. I tell people it's going to be OK. I am fearless, all I ever feel is excitement and power/love from my solar plexus and heart, showing others to have no fear. I can remember what has happened in previous dreams, and, as I've become more ‘dream experienced’ if a dream repeats I remember what could have gone better previously; I know where to go, what to do, how to do it more fearlessly - like some kind of training. When awake I remember them clearly, but have trouble distinguishing the dream from my waking reality. I can also feel more of a connection with a person after dreaming about them and find that they have huge parts to play in my life further down the line (particularly my other half, that's an entire story on its own). I dimension and time jump in my dreams (we all do, we just don’t always have the ability to control or remember it) so when experiencing déjà vu (at least one form of it) I can pinpoint where it came from, if it was a dream I can remember when I had it. Dreams guide me and inspire me to do things in my waking state and carry deep messages for me. I will be covering more of my dream and déjà vu experiences on Quantum Ascension as they play a huge part in my life and carry many messages for us all.

Aside from moving in with Shiny Brightmoon (she adopted the name from my message) in 2012, life became mostly 3D orientated from then on as many more challenging lessons and 3D journeys were to be the focus…

       Fast-forwarding now to 2015, things began to feel like a dream once again; evolving and transforming constantly within me and around me. Synchronicities were endless, as still were my dreams, déjà vu and clairvoyant moments. Mum and I found ourselves talking to a group who called themselves Transference Healers (https://transferencehealing.com) at a Mind Body Spirit exhibition, we were drawn to them as they worked and explained everything in a quantum way, so naturally it caught our attention. I felt the urge to treat myself to a clairvoyant reading and healing session. I was told that my star sign was in Chrion**, I am a wounded healer (as many of us are but that was relevant at the time) I was to be working with the Mother Mary/Mary Magdalene vibrations in the coming years. After the reading, Mum and I joined in with a healing and meditation session of theirs. I have honestly never felt anything like it, so familiar yet so new. They worked on levels that I had only experienced previously when meditating with the Metatron/Violet Flame/Merkaba energies. During this guided meditation I felt a key within me unlock again, that ‘spiritual seal’ that I had been given was now unlocked fully rather than just lock-picked. I could now connect again, any time I wanted, the power was in free-flow again as it should be. I had been able to fully harness my connection to the universe, higher frequencies and most importantly my higher self, I was able to step into and embody these, all at MY will. I began living my life fully by trusting only my intuition and steering my reality by thought (I will go into more depth about heart-mind reality control, something I've learnt to "master" over the years).

       2016. A year I don't know quite know how to explain... as there is simply too much of it to explain! To put it lightly, it was soul crushing and soul igniting at the same time, controlled by mind, body, and spirit/source only. I followed the rail road track laid in front of me, living at the helm of synchronicity, permanently in a state of flow, love, and source energy. I was living in my power and creating from it. I was alerted to how crucial it was that we communicate and gather in our tribes - those whom we feel a soul connection with as we cannot progress entirely alone. I was guided to some amazing soul sisters, wayshowers, lightworkers, all transmitting the divine sovereign, they confirmed and put everything I was feeling/sensing into words and reminded me that all I needed to do was to trust and listen. As soon as I followed the signs - doors opened.

Like almost every year in my life, it was a more than tough; physically, emotionally, mentally. So much so that I ended up tearing my L5-4 disc (like many of us spiritual and empathetic folk I've been sent down the path of illness and pain throughout most of my life, so this wasn't a first) yet being me, I saw the good side; it opened up options for me, helped me change my life once again. I opened up like an orange, peeled to the core once again, revealing more layers of myself but reinforcing them at the same time. Through this inherent listening, I rebuilt myself and moved out of a stale situation. Everything pieced together perfectly, divinely, spine tingly! I was paired with my Twin Flame (I find the term Twin Flame misunderstood and overused, but it’s a thing, at least in my reality) and it turned everything inside-out and forwards that year...

       2017, 2018, 2019. Due to life turning backwards, forwards and inside out, I had no choice but to go from one toxic living environment to another, my emergency environment, a place I am poisoned yet grow simultaneously, it wasn’t ideal, but there I did what I could to heal mentally - healing physically was the biggest challenge. I knew it was all meant to be, I knew why I was there and that it was in my highest good, I flowed through the tough times that I knew were ahead and embraced them. I wouldn't have been able to deal with this foreseen situation anywhere else, I had to complete this process and however long it would take I was ready for my next lessons. I was thrown challenge after challenge; each one I knew was coming and recognised it when it arrived. I felt like I’d become so practiced at shadow work, it became second nature to listen to the universe and all the signs and synchronicities; although everything was seemingly falling apart I knew it was really falling together. It felt like I was shooting metaphorical hoops scoring almost every shot; athough the court was made of treacle with some hurdles thrown in. Things developed, I scored, I fell and the process repeated, yet I got up every time. As I became more physically ill, I was becoming mentally and spiritually stronger. A diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and other fun things later, I found myself in 2019 finally completing a process and moving on to the next as soon as I admitted to myself I was ready.

       Over these last 4 years, being 2020 now, I have transcended and transmuted the thickest layers of my being, living in a familiar but now fully trusted perspective, far more in tune, in power and in flow than I've ever been, creating my reality bit by bit since day one, now reaching points I'd previously manifested for my greatest purpose, and it just fits, in harmony with everything else right now...I’m exactly where I’m meant to be in 2020, I’m not saying I am perfect, I’m ever evolving and learning but I am…and the universe points the way!

So here I am, guided to share with you my theories, philosophies, channellings and soul! I am so excited to finally do so!

Merr-yin

*An amazing example of light language - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFBvKne9QgM&lc=z235gtdbnzbqh3etuacdp431zegmdrbzhrm5x5f2o2xw03c010c.1582278926075032

*According to Greek mythology, Chiron was a healer, philosopher and teacher who, ironically, could not heal himself. Chiron’s placement in the chart (see tables below) can reveal a core wound that may take a lifetime to work through. But don’t distress: our Chiron placement is also our secret power! As we grapple with pain, we gain wisdom that we can pass on to others like a magical salve. In fact, the symbol for Chiron is shaped like a key since unlocking his powers opens up a portal to deep, inner peace.

Chiron orbits between two intensely oppositional planets—uptight, restrictive Saturn and liberated, revolutionary Uranus. His role as the metaphysical mediator can help us synthesize the energy of both. Where do we hold ourselves back (Saturn) and where can we be destructively rebellious (Uranus)? We must understand both extremes in order to find the middle ground. In “Astrology and the Rising of Kundalini,” author Barbara Hand Clow refers to Chiron as the “rainbow bridge” between Saturn and Uranus. Aptly named, since integrating the full spectrum of emotions is the key to wholeness. - https://astrostyle.com/chiron-signs/